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I Always Wanted To Write A Book About La, A Big Ambitious Book. Nobody Had Ever Really Done It With La- Treating The City Seriously As A Major Economic And Cultural Power, As The Embodiment Of 21st Century America.

I've Been Alone My Whole Life, I Can't Do It Anymore.

I Want A Drink. I Want Fifty Drinks. I Want A Bottle Of The Purest, Strongest, Most Destructive, Most Poisonous Alcohol On Earth. I Want Fifty Bottles Of It. I Want Crack, Dirty And Yellow And Filled With Formaldehyde. I Want A Pile Of Powder Meth, Five Hundred Hits Of Acid, A Garbage Bag Full Of Mushrooms, A Tube Of Glue Bigger Than A Truck, A Pool Of Gas Large Enough To Drown In. I Want Something Anything Whatever However As Much As I Can.

There Is No Fear. Absolutely No Fear. When One Lives Without Fear, One Cannot Be Broken. When One Lives With Fear One Is Broken Before One Begins To Live.

Words Can't Say This. The One Word Love Means Too Little For What It Is. It Means Everything And That Is Still Not Enough.