Stop It, Mom, You're Making Me Blush.

It Was Like Someone Had Died- Like I Had Died. Because It Had Been More Than Just Losing The Truest Of True Loves, As If That Were Not Enough To Kill Anyone. It Was Also Losing A Whole Future, A Whole Family- The Whole Life That I'd Chosen...

I Felt Like I Was Trapped In One Of Those Terrifying Nightmares, The One Where You Have To Run, Run Till Your Lungs Burst, But You Can't Make Your Body Move Fast Enough... But This Was No Dream, And, Unlike The Nightmare, I Wasn't Running For My Life: I Was Racing To Save Something Infinitely More Precious. My Own Life Meant Little To Me Today.

"what Are You Thinking?" He Asked Curiously. I Looked Up Into His Deep Gold Eyes, Became Befuddled, And, As Usual, Blurted Out The Truth. "i'm Trying To Figure Out What You Are."

=> When Life Gives You A Hundred Reasons To Cry, Show Life That You Have A Thousand Reasons To Smile. => Never Tell Your Problems To Anyone...20% Don't Care And The Other 80% Are Glad You Have Them. => It's True That We Don't Know What We've Got Until We Lose It, But It's Also True That We Don't Know What We've Been Missing Until It Arrives.

And It Was Different Because I'd Already Lost Her So Many Times, So Many Ways, In My Head. And Different Because She Was Never Really Mine To Lose. And Different Because This Wasn't My Fault.