So I Never Spend A Lot Of

It’s All About Control. Control Is Illusory. No Matter What University You Go To, No Matter What Degree You Hold, If Your Goal Is To Become Master Of Your Own Destiny, You Have More To Learn. Parkinson’s Is A Perfect Metaphor For Lack Of Control. Every Unwanted Movement In My Hand Or Arm, Every Twitch That I Cannot Anticipate Or Arrest, Is A Reminder That Even In The Domain Of My Own Being, I Am Not Calling The Shots. I Tried To Exert Control By Drinking Myself To A Place Of Indifference, Which Just Exacerbated The Sense Of Miserable Hopelessness.

My Natural State Is One That's Affected By The Shortage Of Dopamine Production In My Brain. So My Natural State Is To Be Halting And At Times Tremulous And Kind Of Just Physically Disturbed. I Mean, That's My Natural State, Given The Situation In My Brain. But I'm Always As Happy Either Way. And So When It Comes To Me, Body Language Lies.

I've Learned Some Exciting Things - Mostly, That People Really Want To Help Each Other; And That, If You Can Lay Out A Vision For Them - And That Vision Is Sincere And Genuine - They'll Get Interested.

I Don't Set A Whole Lot Of Goals. It Smacks A Little Bit Of Will To Me, And I Find That Will Is Not The Way To Go For Me.

[constant Curiousity Leads To Happiness:] I Wake Up Curious Every Day And Every Day I'm Surprised By Something. And If I Can Just Recognize That Surprise Every Day And Say, 'oh, That's A New Thing, That's A New Gift That I Got Today That I Didn't Even Know About Yesterday,' It Keeps Me Going. It Keeps Me More Than Going. It Keeps Me Enthusiastic And Grateful!