9p.m. My Flat. Feel Very Strange And

Nobody Wants To Be Racist And I Think That Most People Aren't.

I Hate Christmas. Everything Is Designed For Families, Romance, Warmth, Emotion And Presents, And If You Have No Boyfriend, No Money, Your Mother Is Going Out With A Missing Portuguese Criminal And Your Friends Don't Want To Be Your Friend Anymore, It Makes You Want To Emigrate To A Vicious Muslim Regime, Where At Least All The Women Are Treated Like Social Outcasts. Anyway, I Don't Care. I Am Going To Quietly Read A Book All Weekend And Listen To Classical Music.

I Looked At Him Nonplussed. I Realized That I Have Spent So Many Years Being On A Diet That The Idea That You Might Actually Need Calories To Survive Has Been Completely Wiped Out Of My Consciousness. Have Reached Point Where Believe Nutritional Idea Is To Eat Nothing At All, And That The Only Reason People Eat Is Because They Are So Greedy They Cannot Stop Themselves From Breaking Out And Ruining Their Diets.

I'm No Good At Anything. Not Men. Not Social Skills. Not Work. Nothing.

In Terms Of Bridget [jones] I Honestly Don't Know. One Thing I Can Say For Sure Is That All Of These Stories Have Been An Honest, Instinctive Expression Of Something I Felt Or Observed At The Time. I Would Never Cynically Think "oh That Would Sell Well Next."