Love Is Love. It Doesn't Matter How

My Wife Says I'm Only Comfortable When There's A Fight. And It's True. The Thing That Motivates Me Is Struggle.

I Close My Eyes And I Take A Deep Breath And I Think About My Life And How I Ended Up This Way. I Think About The Ruin, Devastation And Wreckage I Have Caused To Myself And To Others. I Think About Self-hatred And Self-loathing. I Think About How And Why And What Happened And The Thoughts Come Easily, But The Answers Don't.

I Try To Make The Voice In My Head Come Out Onto The Page. I Try To Make It Much More Conversational Than Other Writing. I Speak Everything, So If Something Sounds Right I Write It. It's More About Sound And The Rhythm Of Speech Than Written Language.

She Feels And She Cries. It Is To Be Admired.

I Just Started Trying To Figure Out How To Write [something] Which Was Unlike Anything Anybody Had Ever Seen, And Once I Felt Like I Had Figured That Out I Tried To Figure Out What Kind Of Book I Could Write That Would Be Unlike Anything Anybody Had Ever Seen. When I Started Writing A Million Little Pieces I Felt Like It Was The Right Story With The Style I Had Been Looking For, And I Just Kept Going.