I Worked Very Hard On Those Movies

It’s All About Control. Control Is Illusory. No Matter What University You Go To, No Matter What Degree You Hold, If Your Goal Is To Become Master Of Your Own Destiny, You Have More To Learn. Parkinson’s Is A Perfect Metaphor For Lack Of Control. Every Unwanted Movement In My Hand Or Arm, Every Twitch That I Cannot Anticipate Or Arrest, Is A Reminder That Even In The Domain Of My Own Being, I Am Not Calling The Shots. I Tried To Exert Control By Drinking Myself To A Place Of Indifference, Which Just Exacerbated The Sense Of Miserable Hopelessness.

With Parkinson's, It's Like You're In The Middle Of The Street And You're Stuck There In Cement Shoes And You Know A Bus Is Coming At You, But You Don't Know When. You Think You Can Hear It Rumbling, But You Have A Lot Of Time To Think. And So You Just Don't Live That Moment Of The Bus Hitting You Until It Happens. There's All Kinds Of Room In That Space.

I Wait For Good Opportunities To Come Up To Do Stuff; I'm Not Seeking Things. I'm Quite Busy In The Meantime, But If The Right Thing Came Up, I Would Be Happy To Do It.

I Wouldn't Have Wanted To Miss The Opportunity To Make Those Three Films That Didn't Do Well. They Were Really Important To Me, And The Things I Learned Doing Them Were Important To Me.

You Know What I Want? The Answer Is, I Truly Don't Know What I Want. I Don't Want To Do A Television Series. I Want To Do Dramas As Well As Comedies, But I Have No Idea What Kind Or In What Order. Just Give Me The Chance At Them.