I Am Essentially Optimistic. Being Alive Is

The Afternoon And The Early Evening Slide By In A Lidded Daze Where The Ability To Think In Any Identifiable Way Disappears And Where Every Moment Seems To Be An Eternity.

I Think As An Artist Or A Writer It's Ok To Want To Control Your Own Work.

I Want A Drink. I Want Fifty Drinks. I Want A Bottle Of The Purest, Strongest, Most Destructive, Most Poisonous Alcohol On Earth. I Want Fifty Bottles Of It. I Want Crack, Dirty And Yellow And Filled With Formaldehyde. I Want A Pile Of Powder Meth, Five Hundred Hits Of Acid, A Garbage Bag Full Of Mushrooms, A Tube Of Glue Bigger Than A Truck, A Pool Of Gas Large Enough To Drown In. I Want Something Anything Whatever However As Much As I Can.

The Way America Works, And The Way L.a. Works, Is A Very Small Percentage Of People Get What They Want Out Of Life, And A Much Greater Percentage Try Very Very Hard And They Don't. That's Just The Way It Is.

America Was First Colonized By Puritans. Most Of Our Earliest Immigrants, And Many Since, Have Come Here In Order To Practice Their Religious Beliefs As They Please. Our Culture Has Always Been, And Will Most Likely Always Be, Profoundly Influenced By Religion.