He Made His Life A Lie So

I've Been Doing Four-track Songs By Myself Since I Was Like A Teenager, Where I'd Sing In A Way That I ... I Just Didn't Think Other People Would Like It, So I Didn't Play It For Them But Eventually I Got Over That, Which I'm Happy That I Did, Because It's Kind Of A Drag To Be Playing A Kind Of Music That You Don't Really Like As Much As Another Kind.

I Liked The Idea Of A Self-contained, Endless Pursuit Of Perfection. But I Have A Problem With Perfection. I Don't Think Perfection Is Very Artful. But There's Something I Liked About The Image Of A Skater Going In This Endless Twisted Circle That Doesn't Have Any Real Endpoint. So The Object Is Not To Stop Or Arrive Anywhere; It's Just To Make This Thing As Beautiful As They Can.

While His History Of Depression Is Compatible With Suicide... And The Location And Direction Of The Stab Wounds Are Consistent With Self-infliction, Several Aspects Of The Circumstances (as They Are Known At This Time) Are Atypical Of Suicide And Raise The Possibility Of Homicide.

I Truly Hope The Future Will Bring Me Something To Feel Nostalgic About, Because There's Really Nothing Much So Far I Can Remember Fondly.

Certain Songs Just Feel A Way That's Hard To Put Into Words And It's Not Happy And It's Also Not Really Sad But I Couldn't Say What It Is